So it has been a fair few weeks since my last post but i have been so busy! I am currently at home due to the uni holidays, It's fantastic i'm catching up with all of my old friends and going out but at the same time i kind of really miss my new home! And my new housemates! Home feels a little different, i feel like i've matured and everything here is still the same. I have had some of the funnest nights with my old friends drinking and partying and kissing boys, Some of the new people i live with and know also came from my home town so i've seen to of the guys in town, that was fun, espescially since one of them was the guy i had a sleepover with in the first week- who by the way has become a really good friend and some one i've had alot of fun with ;)
The amount of uni work i have is ridiculous and the amount i haven't done yet is even more so. I need to focus more on uni and less on partying! It's just hard when you plan on staying in and studying and someone barges into your room hands you a drink and demands you get dressed! I'll admit i do love it though, this is definately the most fun i've had in my life, the most stressful also but that makes it all the more exciting.
Since my birthday- which was amazing and probably the best fun i've had yet, i've been going to the uni bar alot for the themed nights. One of he best nights was st patricks Everyone in the house got dressed up and we painted each other, i'm amazed i survived it actually the amount of alcohol i drank should have put me in hospital!
There is alot of drama at the moment with the guys in my life, my ex is going through alot and it kills me i'm not there for him. He nearly cried when i told him i've kissed somebody else, what would he do if he knew i've slept with someone! There are also issues with an old friend of mine who is making things very uncomfortable now that i'm single, i'm finding it really hard to find reasons to avoid him now that i'm at home. And of course there is the guy from uni- I really wish i could get into his head and find out what he wants out of this "friend" situation. I have so much fun with him- no not just in bed, but i don't want a relationship and i know that he doesnt either, but theres something about him that makes me obsess and check his facebook and check my phone. Maybe it's the way he just seems so nonchalant about me and i'm not used to that with guys. No matter the reson he drives me nuts! In a good way though... i think :)
My visit home has been very interesting! My dads not well and i think his and my step mothers marriaage may be falling apart which is so hard on my little brothers! I wish i could take them back to uni with me! My mother on the other hand has never been nicer to me! insisting on cooking for me and offering to pick me up in the early hours of the morning from clubs. My family is so confusing at the moment! I wish i knew how to make everything normal again!
Anyway I go back to uni in a couple of days i'll try and remember to update this then, hopefully i'll have some more interesting things to write about :)
Love me
xx
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Today is sunday, the end of my second week being here and the end of my first week of uni work. All i can say is wow. What have i gotten myself in to? I still love this place and the people but the work is exhausting! I've never had to read so many texts in my life! It's a relief to be writing just to take a break from reading! I wouldn't have had to do so much if I hadn't stayed up last night drinking and playing poker with my housemates, or staying up the night before with a particular boy :)
As much as I love this place, my housemother is driving me nuts! My room is right above hers and she keeps dropping subtle hints about how she can hear everything that goes on... I can't be the only one creeped out by that! So 2 nights ago i went and stayed at his place, which other then the single bed and a broken condom was fantastic.
I'm really liking uni life, It's hard work but the fun stuff makes up for it! One night last week we went on a "pub crawl" which ended after 2 pubs because we found the ultimate uni bar party. A brilliant DJ, fantastic people and an amazing energy! We had the best time! For this week though I will try and stay in and behave. Read what needs to be read and write what needs to be written (even if this includes a poem i need to read out loud to my tute group-aaaaaaaaggghhhhhhh). I might go chat with the people i live with and stuff but i need to get on top of my work! I might go do that now actually!
Love me xx
As much as I love this place, my housemother is driving me nuts! My room is right above hers and she keeps dropping subtle hints about how she can hear everything that goes on... I can't be the only one creeped out by that! So 2 nights ago i went and stayed at his place, which other then the single bed and a broken condom was fantastic.
I'm really liking uni life, It's hard work but the fun stuff makes up for it! One night last week we went on a "pub crawl" which ended after 2 pubs because we found the ultimate uni bar party. A brilliant DJ, fantastic people and an amazing energy! We had the best time! For this week though I will try and stay in and behave. Read what needs to be read and write what needs to be written (even if this includes a poem i need to read out loud to my tute group-aaaaaaaaggghhhhhhh). I might go chat with the people i live with and stuff but i need to get on top of my work! I might go do that now actually!
Love me xx
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Uni
So i finally made it here! I'm a couple of days in and completely loving it! At the moment i'm really sick though, but i can deal with that because all the people i live with are really looking out for me, One of the guys has been force feeding me cough medicine, panadol and cold and flu tablets, but i have a feeling what i have is worse then a cold or flu. The first night here was really good, i felt like part of the group straight away! The guy living in the room next to me is the cutest, we stayed up all night building a cubby house and talking about everything! Last night we stayed up all night again but for a different reason :) In hindsight it might not have been the best idea, since i really can't talk today, but wow I love uni life!
I don't really miss home much unless i'm on my own, its hard then, but i've been spending alot of time with everyone i live with. I love how relaxed it is here! like the other day we all just randomly decided to drive up to a look out point and relax, listen to music and chat. But at the same time this place is so much fun! 2 nights ago we went on a massive scavenger hunt around the campus! I've never taken my shirt off in public so much! I really think i'm going to love it here! I just kinda can't wait for classes to start!
I best go and crawl back under the covers, I really want to get better soon!
Love me xx
I don't really miss home much unless i'm on my own, its hard then, but i've been spending alot of time with everyone i live with. I love how relaxed it is here! like the other day we all just randomly decided to drive up to a look out point and relax, listen to music and chat. But at the same time this place is so much fun! 2 nights ago we went on a massive scavenger hunt around the campus! I've never taken my shirt off in public so much! I really think i'm going to love it here! I just kinda can't wait for classes to start!
I best go and crawl back under the covers, I really want to get better soon!
Love me xx
Friday, February 5, 2010
Lucky people
I wish i was one of them lucky people who never have to work at anything, yet everything falls into place for them. I managed to coast my way through high school, topping the year in subjects, high distinctions, awards from the principal and i did minimum homework and drank to excess. I think this is starting to catch up with me now, my good luck has turned into bad karma, or perhaps my bad karma is coming from another source but it seems nothing this year is easy. I managed to get into uni, into my dream course no less but apparently now i have no-where to live. Fabulous.
Since i last updated this i got drunk had sex with my ex in his car, then again sober at my house a day or two later, when we had this deep conversation about how he would be so shattered if i slept with anyone else... Guilt is a bitch and i never used to feel it. The most bizarre thing is that when i cheated on a guy (not proud of it) i never felt bad but now i'm not with him i feel like shit about it. I wish my life would just be easy again, when i didnt have to worry about money, or having somewhere to live, or stress about still being in love with my ex.
It's getting so close now and i dont feel organised at all! I don't think i've ever been this unprepared in my life. I'm so scared and i feel so lonely at the moment, the one person i want to talk to is the one person who i shouldn't talk to. This wonderful guy who put up with my shit, with a smile on his face for close to 2 years.
Oh my god i'm even boring myself with this! I want to go back in time to when i felt lucky and didn't feel pressure. To when i was still innocent and could honestly say not guilty.
I have a friend who's parents are worth a million or more, he got accomadation on campus early, his first preference even. Perhaps his bad Karma hasn't caught up to him yet, or perhaps he hasn't earnt bad karma. Or maybe he's just one of them f**king lucky people!
Love me xx
Since i last updated this i got drunk had sex with my ex in his car, then again sober at my house a day or two later, when we had this deep conversation about how he would be so shattered if i slept with anyone else... Guilt is a bitch and i never used to feel it. The most bizarre thing is that when i cheated on a guy (not proud of it) i never felt bad but now i'm not with him i feel like shit about it. I wish my life would just be easy again, when i didnt have to worry about money, or having somewhere to live, or stress about still being in love with my ex.
It's getting so close now and i dont feel organised at all! I don't think i've ever been this unprepared in my life. I'm so scared and i feel so lonely at the moment, the one person i want to talk to is the one person who i shouldn't talk to. This wonderful guy who put up with my shit, with a smile on his face for close to 2 years.
Oh my god i'm even boring myself with this! I want to go back in time to when i felt lucky and didn't feel pressure. To when i was still innocent and could honestly say not guilty.
I have a friend who's parents are worth a million or more, he got accomadation on campus early, his first preference even. Perhaps his bad Karma hasn't caught up to him yet, or perhaps he hasn't earnt bad karma. Or maybe he's just one of them f**king lucky people!
Love me xx
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
"show us your brain"
So i'm going to add another type of person i hate to the list. I hate guys who think that yelling sexual remarks out of the car window is sexy. "Thankyou my ass is also good for sitting on", "no i don't want to suck your dick", "no i don't really want to show you my tits, thanks for the offer though!" What do these guys expect us to do? Am i supposed to run after their car screaming "I want you now baby"?
If you are one of these guys, then stop! You are a tool and no girl will sleep with a guy who propositions her at 70 km/h.
I wish i understood males infactuation with females bums. I recently went to a big music festival and i had at least 3 guys grope me in the crowd, this is not including the two guys that decided i needed to cool down and poured water down my shirt. GUYS WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Crass sexual inuendo and shameless groping is not the way to a girls heart! (Or bed if that is the direction you're aiming for).
The best date i have been on i had to make the first move! That isn't to say i don't love it when a guy takes control, but please get to know me first! This date was with a guy i had known since year seven but hated, we started talking late year 10, started dating early year 11, we broke up last tuesday. The best thing about that relationship was that he never pushed anything i didn't want and he NEVER had to yell out of a car window to see my tits.
I guess the message i'm trying to send here is that women are not their for your amusement. We have brains in our heads a little above our chest. Just because a girl is wearing a short skirt doesnt mean she is inviting you to make sexually explicit remarks! The only time i want to hear that kind of talk is when a guy has already made it into my bed.
In other news i spent this morning trying to organise my life, going around to various government departments to see what needs to be done. It's getting so close now! i'm terrified i wont be able to do it! The pressure of a double degree and making enough money to support myself! I guess if others can do it why can't I? I suppose that i'll have to sacrifice my social life a little bit!
The great thing about my friends is that all of them have already started planning trips to see me! it's shown me how many great friends i truly have. Even some of the girls i wasn't that close to are telling me they will visit. But then at the same time girls that i called my best friends in school probably arent even aware i'm leaving. Oh well their loss! The bitches will miss me!
Anyway i'm going for a drive, perhaps if i see a good looking guy i should yell for him to show me his dick? See how they like it!
Love Me xx
If you are one of these guys, then stop! You are a tool and no girl will sleep with a guy who propositions her at 70 km/h.
I wish i understood males infactuation with females bums. I recently went to a big music festival and i had at least 3 guys grope me in the crowd, this is not including the two guys that decided i needed to cool down and poured water down my shirt. GUYS WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Crass sexual inuendo and shameless groping is not the way to a girls heart! (Or bed if that is the direction you're aiming for).
The best date i have been on i had to make the first move! That isn't to say i don't love it when a guy takes control, but please get to know me first! This date was with a guy i had known since year seven but hated, we started talking late year 10, started dating early year 11, we broke up last tuesday. The best thing about that relationship was that he never pushed anything i didn't want and he NEVER had to yell out of a car window to see my tits.
I guess the message i'm trying to send here is that women are not their for your amusement. We have brains in our heads a little above our chest. Just because a girl is wearing a short skirt doesnt mean she is inviting you to make sexually explicit remarks! The only time i want to hear that kind of talk is when a guy has already made it into my bed.
In other news i spent this morning trying to organise my life, going around to various government departments to see what needs to be done. It's getting so close now! i'm terrified i wont be able to do it! The pressure of a double degree and making enough money to support myself! I guess if others can do it why can't I? I suppose that i'll have to sacrifice my social life a little bit!
The great thing about my friends is that all of them have already started planning trips to see me! it's shown me how many great friends i truly have. Even some of the girls i wasn't that close to are telling me they will visit. But then at the same time girls that i called my best friends in school probably arent even aware i'm leaving. Oh well their loss! The bitches will miss me!
Anyway i'm going for a drive, perhaps if i see a good looking guy i should yell for him to show me his dick? See how they like it!
Love Me xx
Blog virgin
Heyy
I decided to start a blog because diaries are a little out-dated and this is the age of technology. I wanted to start a journal to document all the new exciting things that would be happening in my life this year. So here we are and here you are reading it. A little about me:
I have just completed the HSC and am heading to university five hours away from everything i've known my whole life! I'm so scared and i'm hoping it is going to be so fabulous!
I have some brilliant friends and some amazing frenemies, there is always a little bit of drama in my life. The newest being the recent break up with my boyfriend of nearly two years. So as i'm going to have to adjust to living away from home i'm also going to have to learn how to be single. Something i havent been in 4-5 years. So far so good though yesterday i hooked up with the cutest guy, i've known him for ages! Take that exbf!
I really shouldn't be tooo mean we had a pretty amacable break up, we are still going to be fiends and all. He's going to be my official booty-call, that keeps him happy and gives me something to do when i come home...
I'm a pretty avid reader which may make me seem a tad nerdy, but i party enough to balance it out i guess. I love to cook- mostly sweet stuff! (which will come in handy when i'm living by myself). I like to go jogging and occasionally do yoga/pilates. Mostly i just like socialising and talking to the people who mean the most to me.
I love exclamation marks! I love my little brothers and cousins! I love vodka! I love that i'm growing up! I love my friends! I love my family! If you give me a chance i'll love you!
I hate judgemental people! I hate liars! I hate people who will point out the obvious! I hate racists/sexists/cheuvanists any 'ist actually. If you are one of these please do not waste your time or my time and talk to me. You stay on your side of the internet i'll stay on mine :)
So now i've popped my blogging cherry i'll have to go do something interesting to write about!
Love Me x
I decided to start a blog because diaries are a little out-dated and this is the age of technology. I wanted to start a journal to document all the new exciting things that would be happening in my life this year. So here we are and here you are reading it. A little about me:
I have just completed the HSC and am heading to university five hours away from everything i've known my whole life! I'm so scared and i'm hoping it is going to be so fabulous!
I have some brilliant friends and some amazing frenemies, there is always a little bit of drama in my life. The newest being the recent break up with my boyfriend of nearly two years. So as i'm going to have to adjust to living away from home i'm also going to have to learn how to be single. Something i havent been in 4-5 years. So far so good though yesterday i hooked up with the cutest guy, i've known him for ages! Take that exbf!
I really shouldn't be tooo mean we had a pretty amacable break up, we are still going to be fiends and all. He's going to be my official booty-call, that keeps him happy and gives me something to do when i come home...
I'm a pretty avid reader which may make me seem a tad nerdy, but i party enough to balance it out i guess. I love to cook- mostly sweet stuff! (which will come in handy when i'm living by myself). I like to go jogging and occasionally do yoga/pilates. Mostly i just like socialising and talking to the people who mean the most to me.
I love exclamation marks! I love my little brothers and cousins! I love vodka! I love that i'm growing up! I love my friends! I love my family! If you give me a chance i'll love you!
I hate judgemental people! I hate liars! I hate people who will point out the obvious! I hate racists/sexists/cheuvanists any 'ist actually. If you are one of these please do not waste your time or my time and talk to me. You stay on your side of the internet i'll stay on mine :)
So now i've popped my blogging cherry i'll have to go do something interesting to write about!
Love Me x
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