I wish i was one of them lucky people who never have to work at anything, yet everything falls into place for them. I managed to coast my way through high school, topping the year in subjects, high distinctions, awards from the principal and i did minimum homework and drank to excess. I think this is starting to catch up with me now, my good luck has turned into bad karma, or perhaps my bad karma is coming from another source but it seems nothing this year is easy. I managed to get into uni, into my dream course no less but apparently now i have no-where to live. Fabulous.
Since i last updated this i got drunk had sex with my ex in his car, then again sober at my house a day or two later, when we had this deep conversation about how he would be so shattered if i slept with anyone else... Guilt is a bitch and i never used to feel it. The most bizarre thing is that when i cheated on a guy (not proud of it) i never felt bad but now i'm not with him i feel like shit about it. I wish my life would just be easy again, when i didnt have to worry about money, or having somewhere to live, or stress about still being in love with my ex.
It's getting so close now and i dont feel organised at all! I don't think i've ever been this unprepared in my life. I'm so scared and i feel so lonely at the moment, the one person i want to talk to is the one person who i shouldn't talk to. This wonderful guy who put up with my shit, with a smile on his face for close to 2 years.
Oh my god i'm even boring myself with this! I want to go back in time to when i felt lucky and didn't feel pressure. To when i was still innocent and could honestly say not guilty.
I have a friend who's parents are worth a million or more, he got accomadation on campus early, his first preference even. Perhaps his bad Karma hasn't caught up to him yet, or perhaps he hasn't earnt bad karma. Or maybe he's just one of them f**king lucky people!
Love me xx
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Why is Chuck Croll abusing Blogger Help Forum forum – allowing molestation, libel, and child pornography?
ReplyDeleteThe pedophile stalker is roaming Blogger Help Forum for more than a week now, and moderator „nitecruzr“ alias Chuck Croll is still into his Bruno L. schtick, against better knowledge, see here:
http://rabhines.blogspot.com
Croll knows the avatars of the stalker and impersonator. He has read L’s alert blog and knows that L. is molested by this anonymous pervert since three years. He knows that the pedophile stalker has an avatar here under „NikolaiDersauger“, i.e. NikolaitheCocksucker in German. Further, he knows that the pervert is posting messages under „DerSaugerNikolai“ at YouTube, see this screenshot:
http://img191.imageshack.us/img191/4192/nthecocksucker.jpg/
or directly at Youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB9mMABRM0c/
(though Youtube will delete the messages today, as every day for three years)
And still Croll doesn’t see fit to take action? It’s the easiest thing in the world to compare IPs, but Croll and his colleagues simply do nothing – more, they do delete all legitimate questions by other, long-time members of this forum.
All members of this forum have to endure this chaos because the moderators agree with impersonation, libel, and child pornography?
The avatars of the stalker:
ChrismopRichbroom
BrewLeicht
BoohooBrew
MarcMyers
KarstenGulden
Rastapunky
NikolaiDersauger
CarlosCumpleanos
DaveBerson
Pilshaw
FDumez
MajorKoslov
TimNiland